I am 54 years young. Lately I have been having a hard time dealing with a realization. I realize that my life will never be or go the way I was hoping. Before I got my Vegas I bought a dual sport Honda and was riding all over the mountain wilderness in my area. My wife and I talked about it and she said she wished we could go out and ride together so we bought the Vegas. Granted it is not a bagger but she has gone on very few rides with me. Saying it is just not as comfy as she would like. So we bought a "Butt Buddy". She doesn't like how it sits her up higher than the stock seat and makes the backrest to low on her back. Since I was a kid I dreamed of having a big bike and riding around traveling. I have come to the realization that this will not happen in my lifetime. Money is to tight to ever upgrade to something like a CCT or a Vision. Even at that I don't know if she would ride with me much. I don't know. Maybe I am just facing my own mortality and having a rough go. I don't know. Just been feeling down lately. All I seem to do is work and we just never go out anymore and have fun since her health has degraded over the last few years and she seems to have given up in some ways. Not looking for help or warm fuzzy responses. Just getting it off my chest so I can hopefully move on.